Behold the mind of a Muslim boy who claims he had "subliminal inclination" toward another man once, but that this inclination is a "test from God". In a comment, he summed it up as: "Like I said. Gay is 's a label. I'm not gay. I have fantasies and crushes. That's all to it."
I don't know whether he actually came to Seksualiti Merdeka, but it doesn't sound like it... This is what he says:
Seksualiti Merdeka. Sexuality Independance.
No. It's not about the freedom of anal-sex and sensual-dildo-sex but the freedom to exude homosexual/bisexual lifestyles.
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Seksualiti Merdeka will take place on 29, 30 & 31 August in conjunction with our Merdeka celebrations to address the fact that 51 years after independence, not all Malaysians are free to be who they are. Many of us are proud productive citizens of the country, yet we live double lives, pretending to be somebody we are not; fearful we may lose our jobs, our families, our lives, the moment someone finds out who we truly love. It is time to ask, why this has to be. Cause, as the song says, if one of us ain’t free, none of us are free.
You know what? Live and let live. I don't mind befriending self-proclaimed proud and loud friends who prefers anal penetration. What matter is that I'm a muslim and in Islam, homosexuality is forbidden. Enough said.
You can discuss homosexuality in great length but we are mere mortals with limited intelligence. We can try our best to rationalize homosexuality but as muslims, we should know better than to trust muslim performers, activists and artists who thinks like atheists.
And on the subject of leading a double life, do thieves walk around telling people "I just stole that guys wallet. He seems cavalier about it."? If it's something forbidden, why should we be proud about it? Justifying a crime will not change the implication of the crime.
Check out what his fans says in their comments:
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But what makes this really interesting is this earlier stunningly confessional post, for which I applaud his candour, though not his rationale...
Quran-followers' Queer Queries
" We also (sent) Lut: he said to his people: "Do ye commit lewdness such as no people in creation (ever) committed before you? "For ye practice your lusts on men in preference to women: ye are indeed a people transgressing beyond bounds." - Holy Quran 7:80-81
Death sentence for practicing homosexuality in some Muslim countries.
Muslim Gay Pride
It is rampant, it is becoming acceptable. Gay Muslims are beginning to come out from their closets and declare their sexual orientation. They pray, they fast, they believe in the Oneness of God and yet they're gay.
Homosexuality is a topic surrounded by taboo-chastes in Muslim communities, including BolehLand. It is something parents avoid in conversations. Well, we don't expect much do we? They don't even teach us about sex! (no offence to parents)
In my early years of adolescence, I, like any other teenagers had our blood pumped on anything that involves sexual pleasures. We were curious. We were horny. We did what we do best: we study about sex through the internet and women magazines, dismantling interconnecting hints about sex and sex and sex. Even though I was in the same light as them, I was somewhat eager to indulge in something a tad bit different from boobs and cunts. It all started with the word Anal I discovered from CLEO that leads to anal penetration that eventually leads to gay sex. Gay sex? It is suffice to say that Anwar Ibrahim's case was very educational.
"No dating, no babies, no fuss, and a lot of working out" I thought. I explored everything there is to know about homosexuality until the day I forgot to clear the history of URLs I visited. Kantoi. After an ordeal that includes crying for hours for forgiveness and temporary quarantine in my room, I concluded then that gay sex must have been the most enigmatic and tentalizing thing in the world. I mean for it to be between two extreme mode of acceptance: FEAR and PRIDE, I locked all the memories of pop-up nude bear daddies and androgynous twinks, hoping to understand the topic much further as I get older. When I am able to comprehend the rights from the wrong. When I am able to justify myself through knowledge.
For the time being (then), it'll be a secret between me and God.
When I reached a ripe and legal age of 18, the gay-chaste was finally unleashed by a studiomate of mine. Hazman is a year older, well-built and irresistable. I began to persue him as a 'normal friend' and I used all the oppurtunities I had to be acquainted with him. Our meet-ups became more frequent and as I can recalled, I was mesmerized by his presence. Sinful bliss. It was a one-sided friendship and his subtle animosity made him even more magnetic. I didn't realize then that my subliminal inclination towards him was more then being friends. It was torture. TORTURE. It felt so fucking weird. It had reached to a point where I had cried and sms-ed him gory hate messages when he declined my visit to his room. I recall one that sounds like this:
"Takpe Hazman, aku tak kisah. Tapi ingat, senang je manusia ni mati. Senang sangat. Tutup pintu n tingkap ko rapat2 ek... : )"
I woke the next morning and was WHOAAA... What a psycho biatch! Why in Ayah Pin's name did I sent him that message!
Then everything became clear. Everything. On why Islam forbids homosexuality.
First of all, Gay, Lesbians and Bisexual are Labels. I had a crush on a guy and now I'm deeply in love with a girl. Am I gay or bisexual? These labels are not orientations but are merely man-made popular culture.
It is very true, Gay sex is the most pleasurable sexual act. And like any other extremely pleasurable activities, it comes with a price. In terms of personal well being, homosexuals are prone of infecting HIV Aids and other STD to one another. It will also encourage segregations between communities caused by communal inferiority complex. Yalah, regroup and rejoice, blah blah blah, Gay United! etcetra etcetra. In a wider scale(national/regional) , the homosexuality practice do not produce offsprings, explaining the decline of birthrates in some developed countries.
Why am I attracted to some guys? Because some of them are androgynous. Islam had acknowledged that handsome young boys can be tempting. I read this from a religious book a few months ago.
"Do not sit beside noblemen's sons. Their faces are beautiful and they are even more tempting than that of young virgins."
And from the Quran:
"And there will go round boy-servants of theirs, to serve them as if they were preserved pearls." Al Tor 52:24
"They will be served by immortal boys..." Al Waqiah 56:17
(People who had indulged themselves in excessive exploration of beauty like Poet Abu Nawas and Davinci often slept with their young lovers.)
But for those who are adamant that they were born gay even though they are pious in practicing Islam, I can simply advise you that your inclination is a test from God. If you fight it, you will be richly rewarded.
Until further notice, Gay means Jolly Happiness!
Check out the flurry of comments:
http://afiqsays.blogspot.com/2007/05/gay-muslims.html
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I actually do applaud his candour as you said. Though he's far from tolerant, at least he's not closed to such ideas and willing to talk it through.
I believed that certain people would label an individual / general group with "similar" physical or psychological behavior that is called prejudice, one of the many banes that is making Malaysia one of the most "undeveloped" countries in the world. But we are here to learn, doing our best to look further inside a beautiful shell. Therefore, please don't judge a book by its cover.
If being a gay is a label, being a straight is also a label. Being bended in a J-shape is too a label. Therefore, if someone ask if you are straight, how straight can you be?
If it's one thing I learnt from Seksualiti Merdeka is that sexual preference, like most if not all things, are very fluid. Some groups in Africa actually practise oral sex as a form of initiation. They believed that swallowing the semen of older men will imbue the young adolescents with the essence of manhood. Most of them ended up marrying a woman and bearing children. Some continued to get involved in the initiation while some don't. I agree with kien kiong - this begs the question: how gay are they? Once a year gay?
Think my comment's already on his page, seeing as how he's a friend of mine.
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I am not suprised he said such things...because to embrace the whole LGBT idea is tantamount to shaking his whole belief system ..teachings that have been deep -rooted in him since time immemorial. For him to accept this and to understand takes time ... He had crushes and fantasies about guys but is trying to love a girl because he is supposed to because of religion , culture and social acceptance is denying someone else a true love. Perhaps he should share his crushes and fantasy of guys with his GF and see if she can take it. Anyway , it is the thought that counts ;-)...
hope he is clear of what he wants before destroying the girl's life ...just because what the scripture or holy book dictates ...and unless he can be 100% sure that he wont realise his fantasies with guys when he is seeing this poor girl or after he has married...then I shall ask him to evaluate what he really wants in his life...
keny
Fantasies and crushes aye? I'll put it as to him referring to his latent sexuality. This seriously recalls a scene from Helena Foo's 'After Our's whereby a conversation started between a gay man and a confused straight guy after a tryst.
But considering that he has posted it on his blog and is willing to talk about it, I'd say that he can be open towards homosexuality.
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